after what seemed like forever, yours truly is finally moving on to the final quarter of her nursing program.

i cant believe I’m almost graduating. i truly felt like i finally found my purpose. i just regret waiting this long to realize it but i know some journeys take longer than others. for years I’ve pondered what my calling is. for years i couldn’t understand why i always end up where i first started no matter how many steps i take to move forward. 

“God, when is it my time? when is it my season?”

I cried. Oprah was right. When you’ve done all you could and given everything you have, the last thing left to do is to surrender. and that’s exactly what i did. I surrendered. I cried and lifted all my cares up to Him. “God, I know your plans are bigger than what I have for myself.  but I wouldn’t know what it is until I try.” And since then, I offered every decision unto Him in hopes that it aligns with His purpose for my life.

in retrospect, i realize i was being prepared for something greater. i wanted to be a writer. i wanted to do creative things. but i couldn’t help but feel like something was not aligning. something was not in sync. the universe had other plans. the day i stopped resisting was the day i was redirected.

the light bulb moment of why i decided to take nursing came in the most mundane of ways. now that im thinking about it, it was inside me all this time. i just didn’t see it clearly before. there’s something so liberating about knowing you’re the only one holding yourself back this whole time. 

so to you dear reader, if you’re in your season of waiting, please don’t be discouraged. God’s delay is not a denial. He only wants what’s best for us. 

“When the time is right, I, the Lord, will make it happen.” – Isaiah 60:22